Wednesday, October 8, 2014

A measured approach to 2014 Measures

North Dakota election day Measures 2014

Measure 1

"Constitutional Measure No. 1
(Senate Concurrent Resolution No. 4009, 2013 Session Laws, Ch. 519)
This constitutional measure would create and enact a new section to Article I of the North Dakota Constitution stating, “The inalienable right to life of every human being at any stage of development must be recognized and protected.”

My verdict

No. No. No.
This is a horribly written, appalling idea.
1.     If enacted, we would not have had our daughter, it would have stopped the joy of life, not protected it.  An ectopic pregnancy when we were trying to conceive would have had to run its course, which would have ruptured my wife’s fallopian tubes stopping future conception, the fetus would never have been viable, and eventually my wife’s life could have been in danger.
2.    It would outlaw the use of IUD’s which are highly effective birth control which may stop foolish teenagers from life altering poor choices.
3.    There’s a very fine line between a fertilized egg being a stage of human development, but an unfertilized one not being considered a stage. The way I read this, menstruation could be illegal, if someone wanted to read it that way, and once enacted as law you can’t stop someone reading it that way if they want. This would also apply to masturbation.
4.    It’s an attack on Women’s right to self-determination, with no provision to support the decision they would find themselves forced into.  We would not even be having this discussion of it were an attack on men.

Measure 2

"Constitutional Measure No. 2
(House Concurrent Resolution No. 3006, 2013 Session Laws, Ch. 520)
This constitutional measure would create and enact a new section to Article X of the North Dakota Constitution stating, “The state and any county, township, city, or any other political subdivision of the state may not impose any mortgage taxes or any sales or transfer taxes on the mortgage or transfer of real property.”

My Verdict

No.
1.    It’s unnecessary, there are currently no laws in any county or township that enact such a tax.
2.    If we were to ever successfully remove property tax, then we would replace it with sales tax, this measure would exempt the sale of real estate from that future positive change.

Measure 3

"Constitutional Measure No. 3
(House Concurrent Resolution No. 3047, 2013 Session Laws, Ch. 521)
This constitutional measure would create and enact a new section to Article VIII of the North Dakota Constitution creating a three-member commission of higher education, effective July 1, 2015, with full executive responsibility for the management and operation of the North Dakota university system. The measure would repeal Section 6 of Article VIII of the Constitution relating to the current eight-member state board of higher education. Members of the new commission would be appointed by the Governor to four year terms from a list of nominees provided by a special committee, and would be subject to confirmation by the Senate. One of the commissioners must possess leadership experience in a private sector business, industry, or service and one member, at the time of appointment, must hold a professional position within the higher education sector. The commissioners could be reappointed to three consecutive terms."

My Verdict

No.
At least not yet.  Generally a good idea, not well implemented here potentially creates more problems than it attempts to solve, at the expense of students and the state coffers.

Measure 4

"Constitutional Measure No. 4
(House Concurrent Resolution No. 3011, 2013 Session Laws, Ch. 522))
This constitutional measure would amend and reenact section 2 of Article III of the North Dakota Constitution. This measure would require that initiated measures that are estimated to have a significant fiscal impact must be placed on the general election ballot. The measure would also prohibit the approval for circulation of any petition to initiate a constitutional amendment that would make a direct appropriation of public funds for a specific purpose or require the legislative assembly to appropriate funds for a specific purpose."

My Verdict

No.
The legislature doesn’t get to decide what we put forward. They are not some elite who decide what We The People should be allowed to bring to the vote.

Measure 5

"Initiated Constitutional Measure No. 5
This initiated measure would add a new section to article X of the North Dakota Constitution creating the Clean Water, Wildlife, and Parks Trust (the “Trust”) and the Clean Water, Wildlife, and Parks Fund (the “Fund”) to be financed by five percent of the revenues from the State’s share of oil extraction taxes. Ten percent of that amount of annual revenues would be deposited in the Trust with the principal invested by the State Investment Board; the earnings from the Trust would be transferred to the Fund to be spent on programs after January 1, 2019. Ninety percent of the annual revenues would be deposited into the Fund to be used to make grants to public and private groups to aid water quality, natural flood control, fish and wildlife habitat, parks and outdoor recreation areas, access for hunting and fishing, the acquisition of land for parks, and outdoor education for children. The Fund would be governed by a Clean Water, Wildlife, and Parks Commission comprised of the governor, attorney general, and agriculture commissioner. A thirteen-member Citizen Accountability Board would be appointed for three-year terms to review grant applications and make recommendations to the Commission. Every twenty-five years, the people would vote on the question of whether to continue the financing from the oil extraction taxes."

My Verdict

Yes.
Because children.

Measure 6

Initiated Statutory Measure No. 6
This initiated measure would amend section 14-09-06.2 of the North Dakota Century Code to create a presumption that each parent is a fit parent and entitled to be awarded equal parental rights and responsibilities by a court unless there is clear and convincing evidence to the contrary; the measure would also provide a definition of equal parenting time.

My Verdict

No.
One size fits all is not going to fit the complexity of this issue.  Yes mistakes are made, and we have been on the wrong end of them, but parental rights and blanket statements do not need to come before and above the children’s needs and careful individual assessment.

Measure 7

Initiated Statutory Measure No. 7
This initiated measure would amend section 43-15-35 of the North Dakota Century Code. It would repeal the requirement that an applicant for a permit to operate a pharmacy must be a licensed pharmacist, a business entity controlled by licensed pharmacists, a hospital pharmacy, or a postgraduate medical residency program.

My Verdict

Yes.
Tough call her. Big box stores are the ones behind this, and have spent a million dollars promoting it.  Walmart, Walgreens, and KMart want us to pass it, and $4 generic prescription drugs do sound appealing. On the flip side, there’s no evidence that they actually reduce consumer costs. And the idea that it increases competition by letting bog box stores that crush multiple local providers in every market they enter, is clearly spin.
When it comes down to it though, I want the option that eliminates protectionist rules and allows the free market to operate.

Measure 8

Initiated Statutory Measure No. 8
This initiated measure would amend section 15.1-06-03 of the North Dakota Century Code to require school classes to begin after Labor Day.

My Verdict

No.
1.    It forces schools into a later start date, because they want “more of the best days of ND summer”, without setting a later end date.

2.    It assumes that local schools can’t make these decisions for themselves.  They can.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Embed Picasa albums in your own site

Recently I spent some significant time looking for a way to embed online photo albums into the North Dakota Junior Chamber website. There was a great option called PictoBrowser if our hosting service had been flickr. However as we already use an embedded Google calendar it made much more sense for us to be using the Google alternative Picasa.

Try as I might, I could not find a widget or script to pull Picasa albums and photos. So I wrote my own. It's not pretty, and pure php so no fancy java or anything. But it pulls the xml from Picasa and embeds everything inside our website. For now I'm happy.



<?php

/*** Variables *************************************************************************************/
$user = 'juspar'; //user account name
$thumbsize = '160c'; //possible values:
//32, 48, 64, 72, 144, 160 with a 'u' uncropped or 'c' cropped suffix
//200, 288, 320, 400, 512, 576, 640, 720, 800 only uncropped, no sufix necessary
$outputsize = '512'; //possible values:
//200, 288, 320, 400, 512, 576, 640, 720, 800
/*******************************************************************************************************/

if($photo)
{
// build photos feed URL
$urlFeed = "http://picasaweb.google.com/data/feed/api/user/$user/album/$album?thumbsize=$outputsize";

// read feed into SimpleXML object
$sxml = simplexml_load_file($urlFeed);

foreach ($sxml->entry as $entry)
{
// get nodes in media: and gphoto: namespace
$media = $entry->children('http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/');
$gphoto = $entry->children('http://schemas.google.com/photos/2007');

//read thumbnail attributes
$attribs = $media->group->thumbnail[0]->attributes();

//assign url attribute to variable
$thumbnail = $attribs['url'];

//assign photo id variable
$gphotoid = $gphoto->id;

//asign photo caption to a variable
$caption = $entry->summary;

//output match
if($gphotoid==$photo)
{
echo"<p class='photo'><a href='http://picasaweb.google.com/$user/$album#$photo' target='_blank'>"
."<img src='$thumbnail' alt='$caption' /><br />$caption</a></p>";
}
}
}

if ($album)
{
//build album feed URL
$urlFeed = "http://picasaweb.google.com/data/feed/api/user/$user/album/$album?thumbsize=$thumbsize";

// read feed into SimpleXML object
$sxml = simplexml_load_file($urlFeed);

// get album names and number of photos in each
foreach ($sxml->entry as $entry)
{
// get nodes in media: and gphoto: namespace
$media = $entry->children('http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/');
$gphoto = $entry->children('http://schemas.google.com/photos/2007');

//read thumbnail attributes
$attribs = $media->group->thumbnail[0]->attributes();

//assign url attribute to variable
$thumbnail = $attribs['url'];

//assign photo id variable
$photo = $gphoto->id;

echo "<p class='thumbnail'><a href='../index.php?type=guest&page=photos&user=$user&album=$album&photo=$photo'>"
."<img src='$thumbnail' alt='' border=0 /></a></p>";
}
}
else
{
//build albums feed URL
$urlFeed = "http://picasaweb.google.com/data/feed/api/user/$user?kind=album&thumbsize=$thumbsize";

// read feed into SimpleXML object
$sxml = simplexml_load_file($urlFeed);

// get album names and number of photos in each
foreach ($sxml->entry as $entry)
{
// get nodes in media: and gphoto: namespace
$media = $entry->children('http://search.yahoo.com/mrss/');
$gphoto = $entry->children('http://schemas.google.com/photos/2007');

//assign variables from xml
$album = $entry->title;
$attribs = $media->group->thumbnail[0]->attributes();
$thumbnail = $attribs['url'];
$numphotos = $gphoto->numphotos;

//tidy up album names for link
$albumlink = str_replace(" ","",$album);
$albumlink = strtolower($albumlink);

echo "<p class='thumbnail'><a href='../index.php?type=guest&page=photos&user=$user&album=$albumlink'>"
."<img src='$thumbnail' alt='$album' border=0 /><br />$album<br />$numphotos photo(s)</a></p>";
}
}
?>

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

What to say

I play games because real life is hard. I play games because they are fun. I play games because it's one of the few places I'm in control. I play games because the feedback is limited to a small window, and not a buzz of overpowering noise that invades my skull. I play games because I can analyse their rules and understand them, and work within them knowing exactly what to expect. I play games because there I can succeed.

The Daedalus Project - Addiction

Monday, October 23, 2006

Google Video time wasters

The things you find out there in cyber space. This is from The Jaime Kennedy Experiment.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Expressions

Sometimes I'm overwhelmed, I don't know how to show you just how I feel.

I want to make tender passionate love to you.

On a beautiful four posted solid oak bed, with freshly laundered white linens.

In the middle of a meadow, with a river running through it.

Then write a soul wrenching ballad about the experience.

And play it on a mountain top, with full symphonic orchestral backing.

As I step out of my skin and blaze with pure light.

Then rain down like a monsoon that will cover the world.

There are not words, deeds, or any other expression to show you the strength and depth of my love, sometimes I feel like I'm going to explode because I can't release it.

But what can I do? I look at you with emotion brimming in my eyes, and you think I'm upset. Then I fall back on the three most over used words in the english language . . . I love you.

Wednesday, October 4, 2006

To every girl

I found this on a friends Blog, it certainly applealed to me. I'd like to be the kind of guy that makes this girl happy.

To every girl that dresses cute, not skanky.


To every girl who wants to be called beautiful, not hot.


To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you.


To every girl who gets her heart broken, because he chose that bitch instead


To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.


To every girl who would just once like to be treated like a princess.


To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.


To every girl that won't get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.

To every girl that just wants to hold hands.


To every girl that kisses him with meaning.


To every girl who just wishes he cared more.


To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.


To every girl who just wants him to call.


To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.


To every girl that just wants to cuddle.


To every girl that just wants to sleep with him without having sex.


To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart out there again, because she has been HURT too many times or so badly.


To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.


To every girl that thought 'maybe this one could be the one'.


To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually doesn't think it is funny.


To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.


To every girl that has been cheated on, because she's not a slut who gives it up to any guy.


To every girl that doesn't want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.

To every girl who wants words backed up with actions.


To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find themselves alone in the end.


To every girl that gave her heart away to have it shoved back in her face.

To every girl that has faith that 'tomorrow will be a better day.'

It will be.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Hindsight is 20:20

I never knew there was a clue. But of course there was.

It wasn't long ago that Crysta asked me to download some songs. When I started working I coppied all my music to the work computer to listen to. Sitting in my office, brought to tears by my own foolish blindness I listened to this:

"I miss my friend
The one my heart and soul confided in
The one I felt the safest with
The one who knew just what to say to make me laugh again
And let the light back in
I miss my friend"

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

rat a tat tat
the machinegun rattle
of the keyboard
from the next room
I love you, I love you , I love you
ten thousand little needles
leave me broken and bleeding

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Photo Competition







I entered 16 photos in the 'Williston Hard Spring Wheat Show" last weekend. Don't ask me what hard spring wheat is, but I know my photos had nothing to do with it. That may be one reason none of my 'landscape' or 'buildings/ equipment' photos didn't get anywhere, I'll see if I can find out what did do well, and if I can do better next year :).



My people photos did pretty well though, a second and a third. Not bad for my first ever photo competition. Never mind that one of the winning ones was thirteen years old. I wonder how my niece Hayley feels about me winning a competition with a nude photo of her, even if she was only about three at the time. I called the piece Folk and it is my step father Richard Harford and his grand daughter taking a moment together during a camping trip for the Auckland Folk Festival (Auckland, New Zealand) in 1993. I have this photo up around the house as it's so real, such an amazing portrayal of Richard, his personality and everything he means to his children and grand children. Shot in black and white and taken with a Sigma camera and Sigma 28-70mm lense.



A photo of my step-daughter Ella took second place. Again this was shot in black and white with the Sigma, but the film was not true black and white and lacks some of the grainy depth that gives character to other black and white shots. I called it Chaste and it shows Ella fleeing from me across the virgin sand of Long Beach in Washington, USA on a windy day in May 2004.



If I can just figure out how to post it, I'll put up a sidebar with a sample
of the phots.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Massively Multiplayer On-line games

MMO, often with RPG (Role Play Game) tacked on the end. It's the new 'thing'. World of Warcraft and Lineage 2 have in the order of 8M subscribers between the two. This phenomenon is a major part of why the game industry now has a larger slice of the media market than even film.

Players purchase a game, then pay a monthly fee to play in a world that persists even when they are off-line, that is populated by thousands of other real players. Players sometimes in competition with each other, sometimes co-operating, and more often than not simply players co-existing. Much like real life, and yet, not. A place where the suspension of disbelief isn't that big a stretch, which means a greater sense of immersion.

It gives players a chance to act out their inner fantasies - what I could be if I wasn't held back by, time, money, physical constraints - or laws and morals. I posted a couple of links earlier for tests to determine what sort of player you might be in these worlds. Interesting results and no surprises for me.

For about 18 months I followed the development of Star Wars: Galaxies. I'm obviously a huge fan of Star Wars and computer games in general, and here was a game setting out to allow me to live, learn, explore and socialise within the Star Wars setting and timbering that hold so much mystique for me. I was incredibly excited.

Then I saw this video and my excitement level went through the roof - these guys were talking directly to me, everything I wanted was right there in the interview.

I pre-ordered the game and installed it on the day it was released, then I played it for about 2 and a half years.

A MMO because of the nature of it's 'persistent world' status needs to be constantly tweaked to ensure that the numbers that were worked out during development remain reasonable for the calculations as people, equipment and events progress. This is normal and necessary for the game. But somewhere along the way, developers changed and what got me so excited about that video slipped away. Instead of tweaking numbers up and down to maintain the balance of the game, they began making changes to the actual mechanics of the game.

The change entitled 'CU' or Combat Upgrade was harsh, it messed with a game that I and others had developed a sense of ownership for. The graphics and mechanic changes now seemed to target the audience who were currently making Blizzard lots of money for their World of Warcraft game, and not the player base who had supported Sony through development and a year or more of subscriptions.

Then a few months back came 'NGE' New Game Enhancements. Wow. It was a whole new game, built on the same world environment. Our characters were destroyed, the essential parts of the intellectual property that was a major part of their draw were devalued, and the whole game was 'dumbed down' to the point I was frustrated with the over simplicity, yet at the same time the twitch aspect of the game was ramped up. This now played like a First Person Shooter (Wolfenstien, Doom, Quake, Unreal, etc.) not an RPG at all.

When I was on the development boards way back, I recall picking three things out as key points to why this game was for me.
  • Skill based advancement
  • Player driven economy
  • Star Wars
Skill based advancement
This meant that there were a number of skill 'trees' and you could pick and chose which trees and which branches you advanced down. You had the choice of going with purely combat skills, purely social skills, crafting or healing, or you could mix and match. Become a two master hybrid, or a jack of all trades. The choice was yours. Not only that, but you could let go of skills to free up available learning points to advance in a new area, at any time.

I was a Smuggler and a Combat Medic. That meant I was support crew for the true fighters, I knew my skill set really well, and I was very good at it.

With NGE you have to choose your 'class' when you create your character. That character will now advance through the levels of that class as you gain experience. Any level 45 smuggler will be IDENTICAL to any other level 45 smuggler, there is no variety, and no options. You can only be one thing.

Player driven economy
Crafting was a huge part of SW:G, and revolutionary in the MMO field. It is the benchmark against which future MMO's are measured on the crafting portion of there design. Craters make all the equipment needed in the game, from clothes and food, to weapons and space ships.

For all but the very best rewards for completing quests - player crafted gear was the best you could have. You could pick up items off corpses when you fought them, but they were invariable inferior. The best of the best player items required components that could be gained as loot of corpses, so tieing the loot in to the player economy too.

Since NGE and other alterations to the game, the best of the best equipment now drops ready made from NPC (non-player character, computer controlled) people and critters. This simply cuts the crafters out of the loop and undermines the economy and the promise that the game and it's player base were built around.

Star Wars
My biggest thing with regards to 'Star Wars' is Jedi. Jedi are essential to the Star Wars feel of any medium, but the proper control of Jedi is even more essential. When SW:G launched it was a long, harrowing, and largely unknown path to reach that exalted target. It was simplified a little as time progressed - possibly with CU, possibly just as a matter of course. The simplification meant that now people knew the steps required to reach Jedi, that it was a big task, but far from impossible. It also meant dragging all the prospective Jedi to the one place where the process occurred and making Jedi 'familiar'. Familiarity breeds contempt.

Despite the difficulty involved with achieving the Jedi status, Jedi were not as powerful as I felt they should be. Now we get past my feeling of ownership for the game, and into my ownership of Star Wars. The mythos, the sacredness, tradition and history of Star Wars - you can't mess with Star Wars!!

With NGE, Jedi are now a starting option, players may choose to be a Jedi the moment they create their account. Half the population are running around in Jedi pajamas and Star Wars is dead. At the point in the Star Wars timeline where the game is supposed to be set, there are three known Jedi: Yoda, Obi Wan Kenobi and Darth Vader. Darth Vader had been corrupted by the Sith lord Darth Sidious - Emperor Palpatine - and sent on a pogrom to destroy all Jedi. Which he had pretty much succeeded in doing. Sure, there is space in the story for the game to allow some Jedi to exist, in hiding. But not for me to drop into the star port at Bestine, Tatooine, and see 50 Jedi waving their light sabers around. Vader and 5 divisions of ST would descent on them and crush them.

Anyway, all this rant came about because I found that video again and was reminded how much I loved the game they're talking about.

Watch the video :) http://media2.yahoo.com/player/games/?k=/genre/roleplaying/starwarsgalaxiesaned/6023592

Monday, January 16, 2006

The Daedalus Project: Take the Motivations Assessment

The Daedalus Project: Take the Motivations Assessment

http://www.andreasen.org/bartle/test.cgi

Two tests to determine the style of player you are when it comes to Masively Multiplayer Online Games. Essential determinant when considering the design of a persistent virtual world.

Deadalus Project
  • Achievement 32%
    • Advancement 24%
    • Mechanics 64%
    • Competition 24%
  • Socialising 75%
    • Chat 80%
    • Relate 79%
    • Teamwork 40%
  • Immersion 96%
    • Discovery 92%
    • Roleplay 91%
    • Customisation 68%
    • Escapism 92%

Bartle Test
  • Explorer       86%
  • Socializer     60%
  • Achiever       40%
  • Killer         13%

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Chewbacca passes exam, should we all?

I was reading an interesting tid-bit the other day.

Peter Mayhew (Chewbacca in four of the Star Wars movies) has become an American citizen. He loves a Texan, so good for him.

Yahoo news story

What really caught my eye though was this line:

Candidates also must pass history, English and civics exams.
Sounds good to me, maybe not necessarily the history, but the English and civics certainly. But this is the exam to be a citizen. Surely it would be more appropriate to put this sort of testing in to be a voter? American born and immigrants alike, some sort of qualification to be determining the future and direction of the country would be a wise idea.

I know the electoral college was designed to get around the unwashed masses casting their uneducated votes, but the electoral college is a joke. They don't cast votes proportional to the state vote, and they don't educate them selves and disregard the uneducated votes, so why bother? The electoral college doesn't do the thing it was instituted to do, and it doesn't remove itself from the process either in effect or actuality.

I submit that in the interests of the future stability of the country, there should be some basic understanding requirement for voters. They need to know what they are voting on and how the voting process works. They need to show they are capable of educating themselves on the specific issues too. Whether they then make random choices or choices I may disagree with is their right, but why should my government be influenced by someone who doesn't understand what they are doing, or what is relevant?

Thursday, April 14, 2005

As I watched the Schivo case unfold recently I was struck by something. Not so much the right to life, vs. the right to die debate, but the degree to which out news providers were caught up in the argument.

There was a lot of discussion about whether the congress made the right choice by forcing a judicial review. There was a lot of talk about whether the judges had made the right choice by not ordering the tube put back in. There was a lot of talk about whether Terry had the right to die peacfully. There was a lot of talk about whether not reinstating her feeding tube was murder.

As Michael Jackson goes on trial and the latest information comes out daily, the media who report it seem to have a clear idea on the verdict.

And everyone has an opinion. Not just the commentators, but the anchors and the journalists. The poeople we rely on to provide the facts to us so we can make informed decisions and form educated opinions have been focusing on the verdicts handed down in these major cases, rather than the process.

How many reports looked at the processes involved . . .



Hmmm - a thought started on the 14th of April and somehow never finished. Posting anyway.

A day in the life

06:00 - Wake up. Wake everyone else up.
07:00 - Deliver Crysta to work.
08:00 - Deliver Cameron to school.
09:00 - Check mail and run errands.
10:30 - Story hour at the library.
11:15 - Pick up Crysta for lunch.
12:00 - Deliver Maia to school.
13:00 - E-bay and laundry while Ella naps.
15:00 - Pick up Maia and Cameron from school
16:30 - Pick up Crysta from work.
17:30 - Go out to dinner.
19:00 - Go out to rehearsal.

Luckily I don't have to do everything everyday. But I'm feeling pouty and whiney. I never have 30 consecutive minutes to myself - even if there is a lot of time in the day.

Getting out of this motel room and into a house; getting the second car back - I might just turn christian and praise god.

The end justifies the means . . ?

We are victorious!
We have started the domino effect of democracy in the middle east. Women no longer have to wear a veil and every person has the right to vote in Iraq and Afghanistan. A ruthless dictator has been over thrown and the people of Iraq, nay, the world are better off for it!
Our mission is accomplished, just as we set out to do!
But wait.
On March 6 2003, President George W. Bush said "Saddam Hussein and his weapons are a direct threat to this country, to our people, and to all free people.... I will not leave the American people at the mercy of the Iraqi dictator and his weapons."
Later that month the war began.
During the 2004 election poll after poll was taken, after the dust had settled 41% of voters said that National Security was the single biggest factor in determining their vote (Rasmussen Reports, 11/8/2004).
The United Nations inspectors had been giving preliminary reports that indicated there were no WMD to be found in Iraq, but they were unable to complete their investigation after war broke out. President Bush appointed his own investigator, and he did complete his report, saying that the UN inspectors were correct - there were no weapons of mass destruction.
So tell me again, why did we enter Iraq? Was it to over throw a tyrant and install democracy, as the claim goes now? Was it to gain more control of the oil? Was it an election stunt to garner a second term of office and finally pull George W. out of his father's shadow?
What ever it was, it certainly seems it was not to eliminate the Weapons of Mass destruction and the terror threat that presented to the United States, as the claim went before the war. We have been duped and lied to.
But does the end justify the means?

Friday, October 29, 2004

Fine, you win.

I'm almost 30 years old.

I have five kids.

Our household income is . . . minimal.

My wife has had a tubal ligation.


I was 19 when my first child came into my life, the youngest won't leave highschool untill I am 44.



Another child is not what the doctor ordered.



And yet . . .



I look at Crysta, and I probe the depths of my affection and utter love for her, and there is nothing I would like more than to create a child born of this love. To be raised in a stable home where parents kiss and cuddle as easily as breath.



I look at Aleisha, and I recall those months after she was born. The only child of my five that I have ever had to roll over, because she couldn't do it herself. Who I am responsible not only for raising to be the best person they cold be, but simply for being.



I do these things, and tears of love and longing sting my eyes and cloud my vision.



And yet . . .



I'm almost 30 years old.

I have five kids.

Our household income is . . . minimal.


My wife has had a tubal ligation.

I was 19 when my first child came into my life, the youngest won't leave highschool untill I am 44.



Another child is not what the doctor ordered.




And so we argue. And I refuse to be party to another child in our family. And she says "Fine, you win." then crys herself to sleep, again.



No, I don't win. I lose. We both lose.



But better to loose once and put it behind us, than have to loose every other week because we can't let go of an impossible dream.

LAUNCHcast

Well - I'm jacked!



I've found this feature of Yahoo! messenger that I'd passed over a number of times in the past without even checking it out.



Launchcast radio is a system of delivering music striaght to your computer, streaming over the internet. You rate genre's, artists, albums and individual songs. Launchcast then goes and plays the ones you rated high. It also looks at the stuff that you rated high, that other people also rated high, then plays their favourites to you. Giving you a chance to hear new music that fits similar tastes to your own.



Sounds simple, but Launchcast does it well. Operation is easy and both the music and the interface are of exceptional quality.


Sunday, October 10, 2004

Star Wars

Got it!



Yehaaa!



The Star Wars original Trillogy is finally out on DVD, and it's just awesome. The wrap gift I got from my Locations Manager at the end of Dead Like Me this season was a voucher I was able to spend on DVD's. ANd Star Wars released about 6 weeks after wrap. I was able to sit on the voucher that long without it burning a hole in my pocket.



We'd moved by the time it actually hit the shelves. But Virgin were awesome, they shipped it to me. (They were supposed to send me a shipping invoice first . . . I must send them a cheque.)



There are four DVD's in the pack, the threee original movies, and a Bonus Disc. :D The Bonus disc contains four hours of interviews, behind the scenes, and all sorts of amazing and intriguing Star Wars information. I watched it as soon as I could get the DVD player working and loved every second of it.



Then there's the commentary - I've seen all the movies so many time I don't really need the sound. So having George Lucas, Carrie Fisher, and the sound and visual effects artists talking me through the movie was just awesome! So much cool stuff! And of course the movies look just awesome. It amazes me that the effects can stand up to many of todays movies and hold their head high, and it's 28 years since A New Hope was released.

Friday, October 8, 2004

Tooth Post

Oh my



My kids are growing up!



Cameron lost two teeth before he had to go away for the summer, then two more while he was there, and now has two more loose ones. We may have to start him on baby food soon.



Maia lost her first one just a week ago.



And now I hear Aleisha has her first loose one. And that she's keeping a close eye on it so the tooth fairy doesn't come and take it without leaving cash!



They all grow up so fast, and I miss the ones I don't get to see every day. Miss them so much.



Thursday, October 7, 2004

On Being Dad

Ella goes to pre school twice a week. It's a co-op preschool, which is cool, much like I went to. That means that two days a month I have to volunteer as a 'parent helper' for the day.



As I showered this morning, Ella came into the bathroom.



"Dad," she said, "Dad."



"Yes, my love?" I called as I bent down and cracked the shower door open.



"You can drop me off today. But I don't want you to stay. OK?"



"Yes my love." I grinned to myself.